This applys for both. When I found out that my friend had passed away.. They announced it at school, I had heard something from my friend that was crying in the bath room before hand, and I started to get edgy trying to find someone who knew anything, but they all weren't at school. By the time I went to my 2nd class I heard the announcements and I couldn't stop crying. Afterwards, with the funeral and everything I felt so numb, there wasn't any pain anymore inside. Usually if I get upset in times like these, when I lose someone really close to me I start to have anxiety attacks, and it makes my chest cavity feel like it's on fire, but super tight and it hurts literally. But afterwards just so numb. Psychologically I think my friend's passing took a toll on losing him. Then what really topped it off that my boyfriend was cheating on me with 3 other girls, and all of that was a double wammy.
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